A Christian Poem

I call myself a Christian
but that's not the life I'm livin
I'm always wonderin if this God is fact or fiction
... but today's the day, I give up this contradiction
its time to start again with Christ, time to start another life
cause I'm gettin really tired of, livin this lie.

  I don't really read the Bible even though I know I must
its just sittin on a shelf and its collectin all this dust
  I used to go to church on Sunday; thought that was enough
but soon I quit that too, I guess it was just way too much
as a Christian I am failing, yea its true the stuff I'm sayin
wrap me in your arms cause I desperately need saving.

The door is never locked yet I cannot turn the handle
its like I'm goin up river, stuck without a paddle
I'm feelin incomplete like a ranch without the cattle
like a snake without its rattle, God, I'm feelin really baffled
show me where to go, light the way with a candle........